petrichor and non-sexual voyeurism

petrichor: the pleasant smell that accompanies the first rain after a dry spell

hey everyone I've been wanting to make a blog for AGES after my last proper written blog in... sec 2? sec 3? no idea maaan it's been so long. but keeping a blog really helps me keep track of my feelings and life and makes me happier, idk it's kinda strange. and also I hope it helps you know me better, if that's your concern at all. anyway I hope you'll enjoy your visits here; maybe it'll even become a sort of sanctuary for you as it is for me. I mean who knows?

I've always found a kind of indescribable pleasure from watching people live their lives-- ugh the logoleptic in me cries for lack of a word to describe this. I'd call it voyeurism without the sexual connotation, but someone please educate me if you know better! anyway, that leads me to yesterday's magic lunch hour. I was just wandering around Square 2 at Novena after leaving my tuition kid's house, excited to dig my teeth into my favourite faux-goose onigiri from QQ Rice. yay riceballs are AWESOME okay I can't even say how amazing they are I'd take one over any burger any day. in fact they're like Asian burgers 8) it's just a complete meal rolled up into a fist, and the taste is just-- umami. yepyep and when I find a good vegetarian one I could cry rainbow tears I LOVE YOU QQ RICE.

back to the main story; I mean I love all those little mall food kiosks because it's where you can get the cheapest eats, but the biggest downer is no seats. just when I'm gonna rip the plastic open, lo and behold! I see this nice little seating area between Square 2 and Velocity. SCOOORE!! there're a few people there already, which means I also get to engage in my favourite pastime-- people-watching. what a treat :>

"excuse me is there anyone sitting here?" I motion to the auntie sitting on a bench and she smiles and says nope, please sit and I sit happily I LOVE nice people!! and wow 30 seconds later she hands me her pepsi and asks 'want a drink?' and I'm really thirsty so I say 'gosh yes!' and she tells me how she was telling her friend how she didn't wanna waste the rest of her drink so she hopes someone will come along whom she can offer it to. she even inverts the straw for me before she leaves WHAT AN AWESOME LADY <3 yeah I'm definitely in luck today. pffft while I was drinking I had all those thoughts of Ma telling me 'later you catch STDs drinking from strangers' saliva' but idc I mean what are the chances?! YOLO. yes I'm stupidly reckless over anything, even the small things hahaha.

so opposite me there's this other lady who's talking on the phone VERY animatedly. yelling even. she's really angry in a funny auntie way about Deepa and this other person whom she 'really buay tahan!!!' 'my goodness!!!' and she's telling her friend this and that and how she's getting pushed around by this horrible person and she's so funny I laugh to myself. but I make sure she doesn't see it. don't want her getting any wrong ideas. well I don't think I was laughing at her misery. just glad for her and how she can let things out angrily but not too affected-ly, y'know? and amazing she's got someone she can be so open to. and how she doesn't give two hoots about telling the whole world about this terrible person at the top of her voice HAHAHA.

then to my right there's this chinese/korean couple and the guy's got curly hair and he's wearing john lennon glasses and the girl's reading from this folder of notes and he's just silently watching her. and they look picture-perfect. geesh darn I really love that kind of couple who just enjoy each other's presence without being too 'OH LOOK WE'RE A FECKIN COUPLE LOOOOK'. but then again I guess different people have different ways of expressing love. wonder what mine will be like when it happens? if it happens. hm no that's a depressing topic let's move away from that ha ha.

then there's this guy wearing a restaurant uniform on the bench beside the animated auntie who's just chillin' and oblivious to what's going on around him; he's got a phone in his hands and he's plugged in and I'm guessing he's watching some drama. he's munching away at his rice and this is probably a nice hour of solitude and relaxation in his hectic workday.

at the entrance of Square 2 there's this old uncle who's trembling as he hands out flyers shakily with one hand, head turned toward his friend who stops a while to chat with him. I imagine he's complaining about how terrible his job is and how nobody takes his flyers, but then again he could have been talking about his trip to Rome last week. who knows. his friend leaves and he keeps handing out flyers shakily. only one in every twenty or so takes one. I guess it's good because I personally don't take flyers unless I want them because they're such a waste of paper. but I feel sorry for him. how do you decide between making a person's job easier and saving the environment?

then this indian lady comes hobbling in with a plastic bag in hand, plonking herself down nonchalantly right beside the auntie who's still quibbling away. for a moment she leans back and stares into blankness like she's glad to finally have a seat. then she reaches into her bag and pulls out a baguette, tearing off a chunk and biting into it. as she chews she seems to ruminate. maybe she's like me, sometimes preferring to lose herself in thoughts than live in the now.

DING one-fifteen pm. time to leave for mendaki. that hour was enough to keep me fueled for the rest of the day! :D

so back to today and petrichor. I was so thrilled when it rained at 5pm that I took a photo and insta'ed it and set it as my wallpaper. next to snow, I think rain is my favourite weather!! it smells so good too aaah I could just lie in bed and close my eyes and inhale until my lungs expand. yeah I enjoy taking things in so much. I guess that's the allure of smoking stuff. better not overdo it. okay better stop talking about smoking or horse will eat my neck. she's always worrying about people too much, that silly girl :') but I'm ever-thankful for all my friends. you all have a special place in my heart alright.

and if you ever read this, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOÉ!! yeah everything else is in WA/my secret present hehehe no need to announce it :P

alright on a terrible note I did no work today but at least I made this blog. and recorded down the happy part of today and yesterday. whee!!

you see, blogging really helps me. I was so convinced yesterday was a terrible day because I overslept on the way to mendaki and ended up being half an hour late even if I left early. but now I see how lucky I actually am :) I mean, a free drink?!

okay byeee until next time xoxo wink wink

MARCIA!

Sunday, March 16, 2014